Pag sinabi na, dapat pinaninidigan. Unless wala ka talagang balak in the first place. Ano ‘yun, wala-wala lang? Kung trip mo lang ‘yan at mang-iiwan sa ere pagtapos, naku ‘dre.. Pwede pakiayos muna ang sarili please, ‘wag mandamay ng iba.

‘Wag paglaruan ang emosyon, nakakasakit ‘yan. Kung may internal issue kasi, bakit pa ginawa in the first place? Kung hindi ready, bakit pa may ganon?

Pakiklaro. Ang mga babae ayaw sa mga lalakeng malalabo(alam ko pati rin naman mga lalake ayaw sa babaeng malalabo), kasi ayaw rin nilang mag-expect. Unless in-allow ng babae ‘yun, gusto niya eh.

There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives out all fear.
-1 John 4:18 

Walang perpekto, pero ‘wag sanang gamitin ang imperfections para makasakit ng ibang tao.

Basta kahit ‘di kita kilala, o kahit kaibigan pa kita, ‘pag may nalalaman akong ganyang istorya.. dun ako sa tama. Kasi ‘yung mga ganyang klase.. that’s the type that breaks hearts, loses people’s trust and leaves something deep in their hearts that could program how they deal with people in the future.

Alam ko, kasi nangyari sa’kin. At hanggang ngayon, kahit okay na ako at kahit healed na, minsan bumabalik pa rin yung program na ‘yun tuwing may same scenario at mapapaisip ka, “Pano kung ganun din sya?” Pero hindi naman lahat ng tao maiisip yung brighter side na, “Pano kung hindi?”

Pare-pareho lang tayong minsang nasaktan, minsang nakasakit… pero hindi ba dapat natuto na tayo? Pero we are stubborn people nga naman, kahit ulit-ulit na.. andyan pa rin.

Kinonsulta ba muna si Lord sa mga ganyang bagay? Ahahay. Human emotions. Dyan tayo nadadapa, kaibigan.

Paalala: Emotional investment ‘yan. Hindi basta-basta.

These young people should learn a thing or two from the hyungs I know.

The world’s standards are far more different than God’s. There will be times when the world will think how you lost all the fun and games just because you don’t do the things they do(and you don’t do the things you used to do anymore).

There will be times when they will say this or that, tell you this or that, and you may be tempted and you will even give in.

There will be times when they would think differently about you because you’re not how you’re used to be, because you have changed, because all you could care about with every decision you do is what God says.

There will be times when you will be pressured and times when the enemy will make you think of thousands of lies — sometimes even make you almost believe them.

That’s the real test isn’t it?

In the world there will be lots of temptations, lots of lies, lots of fun things that may seem fun at first but is all empty fun and doesn’t really mean anything. The moment you stand firm on your ground and stand firm on your faith, then you have won over your giant. It’s a choice — a hard one at that— but with God’s grace and strength, you will get through it. Because we can’t do it alone.

I couldn’t have done it alone.

People will not understand. People will ask why. And you can’t answer it in such a way that they would really understand.

It’s funny how you don’t do things people normally would in a certain kind of setting and when people ask why, even if they know it’s because of your faith, they would still try and make you do it. And when you say it’s because of health matters, it’s fine. How could faith be of so little importance? How could it not justify and satisfy their question?

All I could think about was, I shouldn’t live and strive to please men. I should [and I will] live to please God.. No matter how big the pressure is and no matter what people will say.

When all is said and done, the fact remains how some fun things in life no matter how fun it is is meaningless and doesn’t hold eternal value. We could gain something out of it, like pride or friends or “character”. But all the more we will lose something much more important — who we really are and our relationship with God. We’re moving even too far from Him that way.

I choose to change not because I want people to think that I’m good. I choose to change because of how God loves me, because of His love, because of Jesus.. I am who I am.

People will think this is just plain OA(over acting or just too much), but this is my relationship with my God. And this is how I choose to live my life. Not because of me, not because of what people say, but because of what God says.

Do I do things that glorify God? Or just do things for my own satisfaction, glory and honor?

Yes I will fail and I will make mistakes over and over again. But I try to be a better person, because God loved me and with His love, He changed me. He still is changing me.

For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? - Mark 8:36 KJV

Ang sarap batukan ng sarili ko. Anyare?!!? Ano ‘to? Birthday blues?! Lol. Nage-emo nanaman eh. Haven’t been like this for the longest time. Gusto ko ng kausap. Pero wala namang makausap.

Socially awkward penguin.

I’m sorry friends if I pushed you away for a long time and you don’t know anything much about me anymore. And I’m sorry new friends if I don’t let you in so much. And I’m sorry self for making it hard for you. I got used to this set-up for the past 2 or 3 years.

So what happens?

Ito. Hindi pala pwedeng ako lang, kelangan rin ng iba.

Uy, bawal umiyak.

Drama ko talaga kahit kelan.

Surprisingly, and thank God, I didn’t get hurt when I read that! I didn’t really know what the real deal was so I just really prayed my friend was fine because I wasn’t sure if he was okay or he was kinda lost or going through something I don’t know.

And thank God he is fine :) Prayers got through! Thank You Lord! :)

I may not be able to tell him I’m always here and the things I wanted to say, and even if we haven’t talked for a long while now, I will always pray for him. That’s the best I can do.

I expected to get hurt reading that, which was funny, because I would probably have a year ago. But when I read that, I smiled. And I’m just happy for him. That’s just amazing.

When you care for someone so much, all you can really think about is their happiness and be happy when you know they are happy.

Been feeling rather uninspired lately. I mean, no not exactly. It’s just that I haven’t kept track of the things that inspire me more you know. The little things. I don’t listen to the songs I used to listen to and makes me smile and happy. I don’t write as often. I don’t doodle or draw as often. I eat and sleep late. Everything is late. I take some things.. and people for granted.

Okay, maybe my room’s just a mess. It’s such a mess I don’t even know where to begin. I wanna fix it and become more.. full of inspiration. Ugh.

Just currently listening to AJ Rafael’s Red Roses album via YouTube. I could download it but I don’t want to. I want the album. For the longest time I just realized I could listen to it on YouTube. It’s All Time Low’s concert as well later. I saw the meet and greet on Astroplus’ Facebook. I used to really fangirl over them before. But now not as much cos if I did, I would’ve went to The Block to see them. Sucks I’m not that excited. Westlife is coming too. I was a really really big fan when I was younger. I chose ATL over them though, lol. Gotta stick to the budget. I don’t fangirl so much now.

What ever happened? I mean I can get AJ’s album online and have it shipped here but I don’t. And I’m a big fan, since the beginning. I’ve let so many concerts of artists I really like pass. I could have chosen to watch them when they went.

Seriously, I’m ranting over this? I don’t think it’s just this.. I don’t even know.

I’ve let so many things pass..

I guess I don’t want them enough.

I miss having someone to talk to about anything, my dreams and everything in between without even worrying about feeling silly.

I guess I don’t reach out enough.