Yung tipong, mapapaiyak ka na lang nang todo kasi narealize mo kung gaano ka kamahal talaga ni Lord. ‘Yung hindi mo ma-grasp at maintindihan yun, pero damang-dama mo na kasama mo Sya at niyayakap ka Niya sa mga panahong down na down ka.

‘Yung tipong sobrang nakaka-overwhelm yung love Nya, kasi na-realize mo ‘yun yung klase ng pagmamahal na hinahanap mo buong buhay mo kahit hindi ka naman nagkulang ng pagmamahal galing sa ibang tao— ini-strive mo pa rin yung approval ng marami. Pero nung nalaman mo ‘yung tungkol kay Lord, grabe, matagal ka na palang approve sa Kanya. Kahit ilang beses mo Siya binigo, tinalikuran, at pinasawalang-bahala.

Kapatid, mahal ka ni Lord. Kung gaano Nya tayo kamahal, tingin ka lang sa cross. Jesus died on the cross for us. ‘Yun ang true love.

I needed this right now.

Exactly what I’ve been feeling lately. But God is always there to remind me that He’s there and He understands… even when I don’t, and even when others don’t.

I know I’ve disappointed a lot of people, including myself through the years. I don’t have any answers or solutions to why I am the way I am, or why i haven’t been able to change the way I am. It’s frustrating, especially when you want to do what is right but you somehow always end up doing the opposite. Makes you want to give up on yourself and not do anything or even try at all.

I’ve failed myself and so many people that sometimes I don’t think I’m not good enough or I’m not worthy that I just want to give up on myself and my dreams. But God says I’m worthy and He believes in me. I am imperfect but God loves me despite all of that.

I’m just an imperfect human in need of perfect love to get me through this moment, the next moment and the moments thereafter.

God’s love is perfect for me.

If God can love me despite all of my imperfections, I guess I might as well love myself.

I can think a thousand times of giving up but I just can’t give up on myself. God’s overflowing grace and faithfulness in me and my life has given me strength to fight and try over and over again despite the failures.

God deserves more than simply giving up on ourselves because it’s hard and we failed.

I may fail a million more times, but that means I have a million more times to experience grace, a million more times to be grateful for the unconditional love that I’ve been given.

Thank you for this PJMa. Thank You Lord :)