So whoever has been following my Twitter would know that I’m very much a K-pop fan. It was just this year that I’ve been one, for around 5-6 months now, and it’s all because of one K-pop group —- Super Junior.

Hahaha! It all started when I got to watch Siwon and Donghae’s Skip! Beat Taiwanese Drama. I think I blogged about it here. I’ve been watching K-dramas since Full House(the one with Rain and Song Hye Kyo) and I’ve been a fan since then of their stories. But never, as in never in my life, have I thought that I would get into the K-pop fandom.

Before, I only listened to drama OSTs and what with the “Nobody” craze by Wonder Girls and some from 2NE1’s first release since Dara’s there, I can’t help but listen.

I knew about Girl’s Generation and Super Junior from some of my friends; and I wasn’t oblivious about K-pop especially since SuJu released “Sorry, Sorry”. But I just wasn’t into it and I often thought, “Why do they like them?” I just didn’t get it.

But lo and behold… The moment I first researched about Super Junior and started watching their interviews, shows, and just basically everything about them, I got caught, sink in, deep. (Proof? I saved up for and bought their 6th album, Sexy, Free & Single[and I rarely buy records!]; went to the SiHae Bench Event at TriNoMa with thousands of fan girls and screaming our lungs out)

And that’s when going to Korea became at the top of my list. I always wanted to go there, but right now… I’m just fascinated of everything about Korea.

And since we’re about to go to Davao next week, I checked Zest Air’s site today and found out they already have everyday flights from Manila to Incheon. And I’m like… O_O So I tried searching for a flight, just to see how much it is…

Hahaha, I tried searching for April 2013, it’s just a sample anyway. Hmmm… well, not bad! :D It’s the lowest fare even. Plus add it up to the hotel and accommodation, pocket money and everything… Pwede talaga e! Hahaha! I hope they have a seat sale or something soon, international flights included.

They have Clark and Kalibo to Incheon, as well! The last time they only had Kalibo to Incheon I think. But now they have MNL-ICN, daily! :> And MNL to Kuala Lumpur, Shanghai and Jinjiang. Wow.

My brothers keep teasing me they’ll be going to Korea and I won’t be going with them and all that. Meh, it won’t be fun without me there! :p

So, Lord… Alam Mo ‘yan!!! Pero before that, I have to save up for the Kpop Fantasy Concert next year with SNSD, EXO and other artists. Hahaha!

While waiting for the day I can finally step foot to Korea(I would need a Korean visa for this btw lol), maybe we should go to Singapore first or Malaysia or Hong Kong, and let’s…

Oppa Gangnam Style!!! ~

안녕! 샬린, 화이팅! ㅋㅋ ~

funkylove:

(I actually forgot what I’m supposed to write here. Well, I remember but not the same feeling I had a while ago when I wanted to write it. Lol.)

Did you really expect me to answer your question?? Paki-ayos kasi. That’s the kind of question I won’t answer ng maayos because I don’t really know how to answer to that. Seriously, you’re asking me that question in a complicated situation? Wait, what situation?? I don’t even know, I’m not even sure what is this situation. BV.

Okay so I’ve let that out… I’m in a good vibe now. Because I’m too excited for something. Lol. Never allow the bad vibes take the best out of your day because you always have a choice to be happy.

So I instead went on to look for varsity jackets with hood online for my brother(because his birthday is nearing, although we know we have to get him a laptop stand because what he has now is a shoebox and taped over it is a plastic container. Improvised LOL) and looked at the Facebook page of this certain school. And it got me all excited. I’m actually getting all teary-eyed because of the excitement. Goodness, I’ve been looking forward to this for a year and a half already.

I saw a photo post on Facebook saying, “Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.” When I saw that I was like… O_O And pursed my lips because it was SO RELEVANT.

What is a year or two?! Or maybe who knows… Hehe.

Ang saraaaaap mangarap! More so if you know God’s promises in your life. Hold on to that. 5 years, Lord. 5 years. Your faithfulness is beyond words. Thank You :)

So today I had a dream.. It was pretty funny because it was something K-pop related.

I dreamed we were going to perform on M! Countdown with Super Junior. And I was doing my make-up in a rush because we were supposedly up next but remembered it was 2NE1’s turn first. I remember calling Siwon in that dream I was shouting, “Oppa! Siwon Oppa!” because I asked him something. Hahahahhaaha! I think I was asking him about our costumes.

So when we got to the dressing rooms, we couldn’t find ours. Instead we saw 2NE1’s dressing room… And it seemed like we couldn’t perform or something. Hahahahha! WHAT THE.

When I woke up, I was just like… Why did I have that dream?! Hahahaha! I didn’t even spazz over Super Junior the past few days. LOL!!! Funny :))

You know how there are dreams that we think is too big or far impossible to come true and will remain as just a dream that you just decide to give up on it and leave it in the past?

But sometimes there are dreams that are just always there no matter how much you want to try to forget it and walk away from it, it’s there presenting itself.

I read a devotional about God-given dreams and it said:

One way to tell if a dream is really from God is that the desire won’t go away. You may have had it for years, but you still can’t let it go. In fact, you may have tried to let it go, but it won’t let go of you.

Most of the time we leave our dreams and desires behind because we have limited resources or we care about how some people would think about it because you are programmed to be this way or that way or because we let others get the best of us when they said we can’t do it.

We leave our dreams behind because we think they are impossible.

But I realized while reading something, with an envelope in hand and the song Our God playing in the background..

If He turned water into wine, opened the eyes of the blind and more things far impossible for the human mind… He can make the impossible in your world more than possible because in reality, it really is possible. It is just us who sets the limits and puts IM- in possibility.

Unconsciously we would think that that “IM” is only from our own strength and resources, which is limited. That’s why it is impossible. But if we know that that “I AM” refers to the Great I Am, we have unlimited strength and resources with us. Then, every dream is God-possible.

You’d view it differently and actually see that the impossible is possible because it says so, “I’m possible.”

With God, nothing is impossible.

“So what is your plan?,” my brother asked.

“I don’t know, I’m confused for now. Like I know what I want but there’s so many options and I don’t know.. I’m confused. I don’t understand.. My thoughts are so messed up right now. Don’t you think so?,” I said. My brother wrinkled his nose while playing an online game.

“I just don’t know yet,” I followed.

“You know, you’re just scared.” my brother concluded.

He even said earlier, “What did Steve Jobs say? Your heart already knows. You have to decide for yourself. Don’t rely on what I think or what mom and dad thinks. What do you want?” 

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
- Steve Jobs’ Stanford Commencement Address

Inspiring. And true.

My heart knows, it’s just that probably I’m looking for reasons why I shouldn’t follow it. But then again, they would support me anyway so isn’t it ironic that I’m the one who’s looking for reasons not to go for it even if I feel that’s where my heart is and the people around me is pushing and telling me to go for it?

Now what is my choice? What is my decision? It all comes down to me in the end. My brother is right. I should fight. And I already know the answer in my heart, I’m just scared.. maybe.

2 years. It would take 2 years. Where to go? Why this, why that, why not this, why not that? Why would I? Why should I?

Wisdom, Lord. :|

This is deja vu. This is exactly like 4 years ago. But that time, I knew my choice and I just have to say and fight for it. This time around, there are lots of choices and options and all would lead to the same thing I want to be. But what is the better choice where everybody wins?