Awhile ago after my cousin and I talked on Facebook, she SMSed me and asked this question, “Am I not beautiful?,” which made me wonder why and replied immediately this, “What kind of question is that? Haha. You are! You are. Even on days when you don’t feel like one, remember you are. Because God made you and that alone makes you beautiful. Inside and out. :)”
She told some other stuff I must have accidentally deleted. But I knew I replied this to her, “Maybe He’s making you realize something out of the situation you’re in right now. :)“ I told her, “Maybe we have to be content and embrace our singlehood and learn to depend on Him alone right now and not on other people.”
She’s only 23 and she knows that it seems like she’s rushing into things and looking for someone who could really fill up the hole. And I told her that we all have those days, that factor of society that makes us think we should be this and that at a certain point in our lives which leads us to rush into things when in reality, there’s no need to rush.
And she said that for the past months when her mom has been away(she’s currently on vacation in NZ with my cousin as well~ my cousin’s older sister), she’s like in this long dark tunnel and she wants to see the light at the end of it but instead it’s going on and on.. And if she doesn’t see that light, she feels like she has a huge hole in her heart. She said that the worst part of that is she doesn’t know what to fill it with and said that, “Maybe it’s Him I should instill in me. I believe I lost my connection with Him. And now I feel lost too.”
That’s how we are most of the time, we like to see the end result right away. But just like what I told her, I believe she’s in a so-called process right now. We have to go through a process, and in that process, we grow and we learn more of what God wants us to realize. It’s in the process that we learn.
I told her this, “I pray you will experience Him in amazing ways. ‘Cause I know that with what you’re feeling, lost and uncertain, only He can fill the emptiness. Nothing and no one else. It’s only when we learn to be satisfied in Him and His presence that we are complete. :) Until we realize that, we will always find other things that will fill the emptiness and just so we won’t feel so alone.”
And I was just at the office while we were texting and she told me what I have just said gave her goosebumps. And said how much me and my faith has grown and how it does wonders. But seriously, I’m surprised with what I have said and I just wanted to fly to where she is and hug her right then.
I also told her that it’s only us who keeps moving farther away from God, and He is just always there saying, “Ui, pansinin mo naman ako..”(“Hey, look! I’m here!”)
I told her that the Lord misses her.
And just like that, she broke down. She told me at that moment that she was crying. Because she knew and realized that God misses her.
I’m blessed to be surrounded with people who helps me grow more in Christ ~ my ministry, cell group and church friends. It’s different when you’re surrounded with those people and then the people or person who knew you since you were young, and then they say how much you’ve grown. I know I’m not the person I used to be, because Christ changed me.
I wanted to cry with her. I know God used me to say those to her and it wasn’t me… It’s all God. It’s amazing how even in text messages that we can minister to the broken and the lost. God doesn’t choose what medium we will use to tell about Him — be it in the internet, mobile, or in person— because it will be the Spirit who will do the work in the person. It’s amazing how you can share of God’s love to others at a time when they need it most.
God, You are ever so faithful, good and awesome! Praying that she will fully accept and surrender every area of her life to Jesus.